“…I have made myself a slave to everyone, to win as many as possible…
…I do all this for the sake of the gospel…” -1 Cor 9

I wish I could say the same as Paul,

but I know that on so many occasions I’ve sought my own good and my own glory. The fruit (or lack of) of this is obvious especially in the people I’ve been developing relationships with for the sake of their salvation. It’s so easy to say that it’s worth it to put it off for a more convenient time when I’m tired, or busy with school, or when I plain just don’t want to.

But I think in essence I’m saying that it’s not worth it when my own lifestyle is on the line.

That a couple more hours of sleep or a few more points on a test or even my future career outweighs their eternal souls.

I guess this is considered a dangerous thought by some because it might spawn faithlessness in God’s sovereignty. And yet this thought still stands in my head, because we know we are still held responsible “..and how are they to hear without someone preaching…how beautiful are the feet of those who preach the good news.”

In the end, God redeems, but I’m still here making a decision of where I put my 24 hrs.

so phone games > being a part of a friend’s coming to saving knowledge of Christ and having intimate fellowship with their creator?

uh

sometimes i don’t know why i do the things i do.